There always is a Reason!

The past few days have seen me go through a series of varying emotions. I've gone from feeling down in the dumps to being abolutely ecstatic! And I've gone from one end of the spectrum to the other in a matter of minutes! It made me realize all over again, how utterly powerless I am sometimes, how a total stranger has the ability to control the most important aspects of my life, how things change in the blink of an eye! And no matter how prepared I think I am, no matter how numb I think I've become, failures still hurt. So, how does one deal with this cycle of Misery-Acceptance-Exhilaration? How do I deal with the fact that lately, I just don't seem to get what I wish for? My "thing" from my previous blog eventually did not happen.. It was a loosing battle from the very beginning and I guess I always had my doubts bout it. But when you get attached to something, its hard to let go of it. So when it did not happen, I sat there being the sulky kid whose favorite toy got taken away from her! I was just so hurt by the unfairness of it all. And I did not even want to LOOK at any other toy. But God did what he does best.. He smiled at my tantrums, probably wondered why I never learn and gave me a new toy! (My parents did all this actually! Well, big difference!!). So here I am, happy and content with this new toy of mine! No sudden feeling of elation, just the silent knowledge of the fact that this always was my destiny and its much better than anything I had wished for earlier! Maybe I should have gone back and read my first blog instead of sitting around and moping! Second choices always work out to be better than the first ones! Atleast that's how its been with me! And if the second one doesnt work either, what the hell, go for the third one! Why else do you think God made infinite numbers?! :p But seriously, I've started believin in all those seemingly untrue life quotes and the gyaan those (previously) stoopid soundin forwards give us! When God says no, its only coz He's gonna give u somethin better instead!! You just have to wait your turn, keep your faith and make sure you don't loose yourself in the misery!