Dejire!!

All of us have desires. Some of em important, others not so much! And then there are those very few ones which mean the world to you. You probably have one, maybe two in all your life! Have you ever wanted somethin so bad, u feel like all your happiness depends on it.. You obsess bout it all day long, its all you think bout, its all you dream about and you send up a million prayers to the big guy up there hoping He would listen to atleast one of them and grant you your wish! Well, I found one a few months back! It didn't seem all that important in the beginning but as days went by, I got attached to the thought. I felt like it would be the beginning of the 'new phase of life' I so desperately need. Coz right now (Like Meredith Grey says), I need somethin to happen! I need a sign that things are gonna change, I need a reason to hope! And it feels like its finally gonna happen. And that makes this so much more important! I went thro a phase of not talkin bout my "thing" coz I felt that merely talkin bout it would jinx it. But in like a week, the blabbermouth Gemini in me went around mentionin it to all and sundry! Now the whole world and their uncles know bout it and if it doesn't happen, am going to get really mad. Coz if there's one thing worse than not gettin ur thing, its havin to tell people that it did not happen and lookin at their patronizing expressions. Its pity, sadness, tryin too hard to make it look like its ok when they obviously don't think it is and stoopid, utterly pointless pep-talks that drive you up the wall. All of this in varying measures depending on the person, none of this anywhere close to what I wanna see or listen to! Coz I don want all that! I just want is MY THING!!!! :x So i'v zipped my mouth, am keepin my fingers crossed and m sitting here prayin hard, hoping it comes true! In spite all the lessons life has taught me, I still hope! I still dream! Coz its when such wishes come true that life becomes worth the effort. And after all, above all else, Hope Floats!!!